How I tricked myself into being goal-oriented

In my early/mid twenties, being “goal-oriented” was just way too stressful. Plus, it sounded douchie. I’d leave the “goals” for the Deloitte-hopefuls.

Instead, I proclaimed to be “process-oriented.” I liked how that sounded. I was more invested in the journey than the outcome, yeah, that was a much better plan. Definitely a result of the hippie and “live in the moment” mindset I adopted after my first Burning Man.  

I sort of coasted along as this “anti-goals” person. But then something happened when I was 27. I needed a new job and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. The world was my oyster and I didn't know where to go shucking (not a great analogy, just go with it).

I felt betrayed by every adult I ever knew. How can I be in my late twenties and still not know what I want to be when I grow up? 

I realized that without an end goal in mind, I’d just sort of float around without any meaningful way of making decisions. Plus, nobody in my network could help me get a job if I couldn't tell them EXACTLY what I was looking for (people are generally not creative, they don't "see" your potential).

But I couldn’t be “goal-oriented” — gross.

So instead, I’ve decided to “manifest.” 

Manifesting is just like goal-setting, but instead of being a Deloitte-douche, you’re more of a Burning Man douche.  Plus, it’s more freeing because can set goals more in the abstract than the concrete.

Right now, I'm manifesting a talk show. Sort of like The Ellen Show, except I'm Ellen.  I don't know how exactly it will manifest, but one day I just might realize it's happening. #faith